Me Sleepy

I'm so tired I don't even feel like writing this blog. Waking up for my bootcamp at the crack of dawn every morning with little sleep will do that to you. There is one supposed upside to this: good practice when the baby comes. I can imagine getting up several times a night with a crying baby. I'm a light sleeper. Is it true that whoever wakes up first gets the baby? Is that how it works? I hope not. I think couples take turns and it also depends on what's going on the next day...I think at least. I know we're not going to have as good of a baby as my sister - that's impossible and asking for trouble when even thinking about it. I just pray that our baby isn't the baby that never sleeps and cries constantly.

Of course I'm getting way ahead of myself. We are only in our 9th week and we've got a very important test on the horizon - the genetics test, which will give us an idea if our baby is a healthy one. I have no reason to worry, but I'm sure all soon-to-be parents experience anxiety and I'm no different. Got to cut this short - I can't put two cohesive thoughts together.

JS

Time for a little change...

As Jay says, the cat is out of the bag and I'm still surprised by the reactions we are receiving. Actually, it's the reaction as well as the following actions. Let me try to explain.

We knew our parents, siblings, and friends would be happy for us. Who isn't happy to hear about a new baby? What we didn't understand was the true genuine emotion that accompanies these responses. I'm sure you read this and say, "duh, people aren't going to fake being excited for you". But that's not what I mean when I say genuine. My use of the word genuine in this case is closer aligned with the word empathy. So when I say people are truly happy for us, I mean the pure shock, thrill, and excitement they show is more than face deep. Every ounce of their reaction is so pure and honest. Yes they cry and smile. But it's like they've been wanting to share this experience with us for the longest time. And it's humbling.

Jay and I know that we are very fortunate to have such amazing family and friends. I would say that everyone says that but that's not true. There are a lot of people out there who are alone, without, and lost. There are people that have never experienced the type of amazing support we are receiving. There are people that go through these major life events alone. We are blessed to not be one of those people. Although we like our privacy and have several inside jokes and sayings, we appreciate the love and support we are receiving. It's making everything more special.

So realizing that this is not about just us anymore, I'm going to be better. I'm going to change. While I don't plan on sharing every little detail of my pregnancy, I will be better about updating the family. It obviously means a lot to them and they mean a lot to me. Who knows, maybe we'll allow them access to the blog. Or maybe not. Baby steps...

The Cat is Out

I used to wonder where the term, "the cat is out of the bag," came from. I started reading the "Master and Commander" books and found out one possibility. The cat, so to speak, is a whip kept in a bag which was used to flog sailors who were not doing their duty or who challenged senior ranking officials. Of course this doesn't make much sense when comparing a situation of letting out a secret. I did a little digging and it may go back to medieval times in markets where a crooked salesman would sell a cat in place of a chicken, fish, or some type of then to agreed good. When the purchaser got home and opened the bag...surprise. Of course this makes more sense.

To get to the point, we decided to tell our immediate family and closest friends about our pregnancy, hence the title of this blog. Of course this also means that our blog site title "Undisclosed" may eventually have to be changed and become public. Right now, our families couldn't be more happy for us. We go to the doctor for the second time tomorrow to get our first ultrasound. This will tell us if the baby has a heartbeat and is the first step and one of the most important steps in the first trimester. We are anxious and nervous, but also excited. All a parent can ask for is to have a healthy baby. I pray that whatever happens, God will be with us to help us along the way.